Crossroads

My hormones are going crazy. I cry and/or get angry at the drop of a hat. I feel like I am losing myself. I don't know where the positive Tracy is and I suppose I will find her. I feel very sad. I feel tired. I guess I am at a crossroads. Do I continue this path or do I find a support group. The thought of a support group gives me anxiety. Maybe there is some drug that can make me happy until I am done with chemo. I don't know. I just want to be "normal" again. I want to go back to my wedding day and feel that happy. Even if just for 5 minutes. I guess I'm stuck right now.

I am thankful for sunny days.